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A Vision Of You
Contributed by
go5go
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Friday, 24th June 2005 @ 11:04:26 AM in AEST
Topic:
DreamsandWishes
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A VISION OF YOU…
WHEN I WAS A SCHOOL GIRL I DREAMED I WOULD BE,
A DOCTOR WHO CURED EVERY PET BROUGHT TO ME!
MY PASSION WAS FOR CRITTERS, NO MATTER WHAT KIND.
I LOVED THEM AND SOMEHOW I READ THEIR MIND.
BACK THEN I WAS CERTAIN WHO I'D GROW TO BE
BEING YOUNG I BELIEVED THOSE IN STORIES, YOU SEE.
MY FRIENDS WOULD BE DOCTORS AND FIREMEN AND SUCH,
BUT I'D HEAL GODS CREATURES, CAUSE I HAD THE TOUCH.
I STILL REMEMBER MY FIFTH GRADE YEAR,
A NEW BOY NAMED JUSTIN AND HIS FAMILY MOVED HERE.
I COULDN'T STOP STARING WHEN HE WAKED IN MY CLASS,
WITH CRYSTAL BLUE EYES THAT SPARKLED LIKE GLASS
I DREAMED FROM THEN ON WHEN I HAD MY FIRST KID
I'D NAME HIM JUSTIN, JUST LIKE HIS MOM DID.
IN MY DREAMS YOU WERE PERFECT, ESPECIALLY YOUR LOOKS,
I CREATED OUR LIFE FROM MY FAIRY TALE BOOKS.
I PICTURED YOUR FATHER, HOW HE'D BE THE MAN,
TO GIVE US A WORLD THAT WAS SAFE, WAS MY PLAN.
I WAS SO YOUNG, BUT I THOUGHT HE WOULD BE
JUST LIKE MY DAD, AND A HERO TO ME.
MY DREAMS NEVER SHOWED ME THE BUMPS IN THE ROAD
OR HOW ONE WRONG TURN; AND MY PLANS WOULD EXPLODE!!
I GREW UP QUICK AND WATCHED ALL MY DREAMS SHATTER,
AND ALL THE PLANS I MADE JUST DIDN'T MATTER!
WITHOUT A WORD IN THE NIGHT MY DAD WALKED OUT THE DOOR
MY DREAMS WEREN'T IMPORTANT TO ME ANYMORE.
THE MAN I BELIEVED IN NEVER REALLY EXISTED,
AND THE WORLD THAT I LIVED IN WAS EVIL AND TWISTED.
I CLOSED MY HEART, AND I CLINCHED MY FIST
AND DRINKING I PLACED ON THE TOP OF MY LIST.
WHERE WAS I GOING?
WHAT WOULD I DO?
---------- A BUMP IN THE ROAD -----------
AND THEN ONE DREAM CAME TRUE!
AND AS I LOOKED IN YOUR EYES FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME,
I REALIZED JUST HOW LIFE TURNS ON A DIME!
THE DAY YOU WERE BORN, MY LIFE BECAME CLEAR,
AND MY VISION WAS NOTHING LIKE HAVING YOU HERE!
NOTHING COMES EASY,
------------- EXPECT BUMPS IN THE ROAD -------------
I LEARNED WHAT IT MEANT WHEN WE REAP WHAT WE SOWED.
I STAYED WITH YOUR DADDY UNTIL YOU WERE THREE,
WHEN I KICKED HIM OUT IT WAS JUST YOU AND ME.
I WANTED TO GIVE YOU THINGS I NEVER HAD,
BUT I WAS ALONE AND YOU NEEDED A DAD!
THEN WE HAD JORDAN AND I LOVED HIM TOO,
I CANT PICTURE LIFE WITH OUT BOTH OF YOU
I PRAYED I WAS WORTHY, I FEARED FOR MY BOYS;
I HAD NO INSTRUCTIONS, I KNEW YOU WEREN'T TOYS!
BUT I NEVER DREAMED OF THIS LIFE THAT WAS NEW
AND I NEVER INTENDED FOR IT TO HURT YOU!
I'LL NEVER KNOW THE PAIN THAT YOU HIDE,
WHEN HURT MYSELF AND I ALMOST DIED.
I HATED MYSELF AND MY LIFE WAS THE TRIGGER
MY HEAD KNEW WHATS RIGHT BUT MY HEARTS ALWAYS BIGGER!
LIFE WILL ALWAYS HAVE------BUMPS IN THE ROAD
I JUST WASN'T ABLE CARRY THAT LOAD!
THERE WERE SO MANY TWISTS AND TURNS IN MY PATH,
SOMETIMES IT WAS HARD AND THERES BAD AFTERMATH!
I'M SORRY I'M NOT THE BEST MOM ON THIS EARTH
BUT I KNEW LONG AGO THAT I WASN'T OF WORTH!
NOW I TAKE THE BLAME AND I LIVE FULL OF GUILT
FOR THE UNSTABLE LIFE OF CONFUSION I BUILT.
I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO CHANGE WHAT I'VE DONE
I'M SORRY I MADE YOUR LIFE SO HARD MY SON,
I ONLY WISH YOU WOULD OPEN YOUR EYES;
PLAN FOR YOUR FUTURE AND REACH FOR THE SKYS!
LOOK BACK ON THE HARDSHIP I PLACED IN YOUR LIFE,
AND PROMISE SOMEDAY YOU'LL BE GOOD TO YOUR WIFE
BE A PROVIDER, MAKE YOUR KIDS STRONG
MAKE SURE THEY KNOW GOD AND THEY KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG!
AND JUSTIN, PLEASE PROMISE YOU'LL LEAVE A CLEAR PATH
DON'T LEAVE BEHIND ROADS FULL OF BAD AFTERMATH!
SON, KNOW IN YOU'RE HEART THAT DREAMS DO COME TRUE;
MINE DID WHEN I HAD A VISION OF YOU!
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go5go
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2005-06-24 11:04:26] (Date/Time posted on
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Re: A Vision Of You
(User Rating: 1 ) by xXx_Fem_Fatale_xXx on
Friday, 24th June 2005 @ 12:47:25 PM AEST (User
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Life never turn out how we planned it. Just try the best you can, thats all we can do really. And no parent is the right parent. We all have our own stories to tell. Kids are strong and a lot smarter than most would think. Pretty sure they have seen and understood the situation as it was and how it is now. If you manager to give them a roof above their head and food on the table and most of all, a whole lotta lovings, youre doing it good. :-)
Thats more important than all the toys and other material things in life. Just do your best, thats all you can do.
All the best of luck to you and your kid.
You let out some strong feelings in this writing, good job. Make sure you give this to your son if you havent already done......
Hugsssss,
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Re: A Vision Of You
(User Rating: 1 ) by lovesucks on
Tuesday, 12th July 2005 @ 12:15:16 AM AEST (User
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This touched me so.....I feel that pain...I made some bad mistakes too..and my son has suffered. Things do get better, as long as you continue to do the next right thing, everything works out. God Bless
Theresa |
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