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Jade
Contributed by
Cancer
on
Thursday, 14th April 2005 @ 12:31:01 AM in AEST
Topic:
DarkPoetry
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nothing much
just somber and withdrawn
always searching for pills
and sometimes
after a good dose
she'd tell me she loved me
and it always almost made me cry
always (almost)
i don't know if Jade was her real name
but she always said it was
and that was good enough for me
sometimes i'd kiss her neck
and she'd smile and wrinkle her nose
and her eyes would kinda roll around
i'd like to think it was for me
but it was probably the pills
the times she'd OD were bad
i'd sit up with her all night
holding her in my arms
turning her head towards the bucket
so she wouldn't choke to death on the vomit
after awhile, she'd wake up and smile
tell me of some dream or another
and reach for some pills
then sleep the day away
she never knew i saw her shoot up or snort
not that she was stupid
her mind was merely cloudy
it broke my heart each time
she ran to the dope instead of me
she never really gave me a chance to help her
maybe she thought i was weak
or didn't want to burden me
doesn't matter now
at her funeral, i couldn't tell
which tears were of sorrow
and which were of regret
regret that i never slapped those damn pills away
regret that i never shook her and screamed,
"I'M HERE TOO"
no matter how i look at it
it's still assisted suicide to me
because i just stood by
and let her kill herself
i let her waste the life i loved
i let her die, virtually alone
and even now, as i fill the needle
i can't tell if i'm just trying to escape the past
or if i'm just following her again
down the path she made for her heart
and the one who loved it too
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Cancer
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2005-04-14 00:31:01] (Date/Time posted on
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Re: Jade
(User Rating: 1 ) by gurlthatwontgiveup on
Thursday, 14th April 2005 @ 12:57:06 AM AEST (User
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That is some deep dark stuff. It was really good and it made me wanna cry. It was really dark and sad. What more can say besides how sad and heavy it was. |
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Re: Jade
(User Rating: 1 ) by The_Callif on
Thursday, 14th April 2005 @ 01:01:38 AM AEST (User
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that is amazingly dark, great write, keep it up |
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Re: Jade
(User Rating: 1 ) by bobotheclown on
Thursday, 14th April 2005 @ 01:26:18 AM AEST (User
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Wow Roy this was stunning. I don't think this
was based on truth but you sure as hell
made it come alive. The imagery in this was
amazing it was good to stumble across
another poem by you. For this I give you a
handful of rainbow skittles :P.
Bobo (Joel) |
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Re: Jade
(User Rating: 1 ) by Bohemian_with_a_pen on
Thursday, 14th April 2005 @ 04:18:16 AM AEST (User
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wow.. amazing.. well done |
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