my stomach tied in knots
shortening every breath i take
suffocating my utmost being
walking past you like i dont know you
but you stop me.
my heart stops and screams into my unopen head
"dont do this to yourself"
but i set myself up for the greatest fall.

i cut you off short and try to steal away
but no matter what your always there
surrounding me with your presence, your voice, your piercing eyes.
then i see her. the new victim.
the victim of your counterfeit love.

the color of a shining emerald emerges in my body
as i see how happy you are.
it eats away at my heart to know that you have found someone
to ease your pain and make you smile like i once did.
that girl was supposed to be me.
the girl with no fears.
the girl that had everything she wanted in the world.
the girl with the life of ultimate perfection.

we had our times. our moments. our laughter. our pain
it was cut short. broken. and never mended back.
left hanging like a string of hope. torn and shattered.
i feel broken and alone.
never knowing what couldve been or happened.
left reminiscing on all the memories of you

all thats left is an empty hallowed out space in my heart