LETTiNG iT OUT
Contributed by
jackie
on
Sunday, 29th February 2004 @ 02:39:26 AM in AEST
Topic:
LoveRemembered
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I hate to admit it, but it’s true,
After all this time, I still miss you.
I know I shouldn’t, I don’t even know why,
But I think about the times we had whenever you walk by.
The way you would hold me, the way you cared,
The conversations we had, and the fact that you said you’d always be there.
I remember the first day we met,
And no I didn’t think you were 'heaven sent.'
Figured you’d always be that cute guy who’s cool,
The guy that’d I’d only see around school.
But we met, eventually became friends,
Went out a couple of times, and that was when,
I realized, I’d fallen for you.
We started talking, learned more about each other each day,
I told you I’ve never been to first base; you said you haven’t even stepped up to play.
Then you ended it for the first time that one Saturday.
Thinking back, I remember the day of the bonfire, you avoided me.
At that time I was like whatever, knew he wouldn’t want me.
The fireworks shot up that night, lighting up the sky,
And there was me standing there wishing you were my guy.
I went home that night with tears in my eyes.
You came back a few days later saying that you missed me.
That you were sorry, that it drove you crazy.
I took you back, not knowing what would happen between us.
Reminiscing that night of Halloween,
Some of us almost saw things that weren’t suppose to be seen.
I remember you freezing in the cold,
And how bout that super scary story that was told.
I was so scared and even got a lil bit teary,
But I was okay as long as you were near me.
I have to say that was the best Halloween experience.
Remember that day at the park,
We stayed there till it was dark.
Remember sitting there holding each other tight,
Wishing that we could stay there all night.
We had our first kiss,
Right then and there I knew you’d be someone I’d miss.
How bout that day we laid in your bed,
'I can’t believe this is happening' is what went through my head.
We watched movies and some TV.,
Sat on the couch so close that I could hear you breathe.
It felt so right but yet so wrong,
It was like something inside me knew all along
That this wouldn’t last, that it would end,
And that wouldn’t even end up as friends.
Funny how I thought that I’d be the one who ended up hurting you,
As I sat there in your bed, I didn’t know what to do.
That night I told you what I had tried to do,
Tried to stop myself from falling for you.
But it was too late I had already fallen,
I guess you took it the wrong,
We were hanging up, arguing all night long.
You called me back, said you were sorry and that you could never get mad.
You promised that you’d never hurt me, never leave and that I was perfect for you, and I was glad.
I told you my secrets, told you my thoughts,
There were many times that I can recall when we fought.
You said I love you, I said you don’t,
I told you to not hurt me, you said you won’t.
We argued about stupid things,
Like when you thought that I’d be the one to wear that special ring.
Sorry I made you question the way you felt,
But every time you told me, my heart would melt.
I'm sorry but I was scared.
Couldn’t believe someone like you
Was falling for someone like me.
'I was looking forward to the first time I’d kiss you and now that I have, what is there?'
You said that like you never cared.
So I guess all you were looking for was a kiss?
Well you got it. Good job. So who’s next on your list?
Or maybe that was just an excuse, which is pretty lame.
Should’ve just told me the truth instead of playing these lil games.
Those things you said hurt so much,
How 'there’s nothing to look forward to anymore' and such and such.
I know you never meant to hurt me,
At least not intentionally.
But I wonder if you even know that you did.
The things you said, the way you said it,
Made me lie in my bed and cry like a kid.
I even remember calling you back after you said what you needed to say.
I thought about my past and I didn’t want you to be another who I let slip away.
I’m not sure why what we had had to end,
You said it was too much for you, that you couldn’t take it, that we should just be friends.
What kinda friends can’t even say hi?
Can’t even talk? Can’t even look at each other straight in the eye?
We're not friends, not enemies, not lovers,
You said you ended it before we could hurt each other.
Just to let you know I’m alright, I’ll live, I’m okay.
I just tend to reminisce on the past yesterdays.
The day at your house, watching ‘Scary Movie 3’
And you losing that bowling bet to me.
That night we were running all around the school,
All those times we were together were cool.
But the day you left, hurt me real bad,
Even today I’m still a lil bit sad.
I wish we still hung out, joked around and talked for awhile,
But for now I guess ill just walk around with a smile.
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jackie
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2004-02-29 02:39:26]
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