Emotions
Contributed by
hawaii06
on
Monday, 2nd February 2004 @ 07:38:19 PM in AEST
Topic:
oops
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What is this world coming to?
I mean everybody who loves or has ever loved,
should know what I’m talking about.
I thought about what I’d be or what I’d do without you before,
but I never really wanted it to turn out this way.
Yeah, ***** happens,
but I never wanted this with us.
The emotions inside of me are becoming bottled up,
and I take the anger/stress out on anybody at anytime.
I can’t control myself;
my anger is taking over everything I do.
I know it’s not my friends or my teachers fault,
but my anger always comes out on them.
My mind no longer has control of me.
I can’t learn, can’t think,
I can’t even eat or sleep.
I wake up every hour thinking you’re standing by my bed,
and when I awake,
you are no longer there.
You are just a vision.
A figment of my imagination.
I think about how horrible my life was,
then I met you,
and it seems as though my whole life has changed with the blink of an eye.
Right now, my life is twisting, unwinding,
and then going back to getting twisted, except worse than before.
Every time I think my life is getting better,
I start to lose the people I love most.
Right now, I’m losing you,
and you are the person I love most.
I wonder why it has to be the people I love.
Why?
I just don’t seem to understand.
I guess I never will.
Well, maybe someday I will, I hope so.
I’m tired of being trapped inside of my emotions.
I really need to get out.
I need to rebuild my self-esteem,
and just not let my emotions blow me over.
Right now though,
I’m way deep down inside of this so-called tunnel.
It’s a never ending tunnel,
that I keep falling deeper, and deeper down into.
I’m stressed out.
I need to take my anger out on something, anything.
I used to play football, but it doesn’t seem to be working any more.
The harder I try to get myself untrapped,
the further I keep falling into that never ending tunnel.
It seems like eternity has passed by,
but really, not even five minutes has.
I tell myself to try and take all of my emotions that take over me,
and make me not able to do anything,
and just let them fly away.
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