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Just release me from the pain
Contributed by
KittyVamp
on
Monday, 26th January 2004 @ 03:27:51 AM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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I have hit the bottom, there seems to be no way up
I want to be released from this pain
I want to float into a peaceful dream
to fly far away into a misty fog
to never again know that no one's aware
no one who knows, no one who cares
to feel my soul take flight from this earth
or maybe just to disappear
my life's meant nothing, nothing but pain
the anguish is too much to bear
I can't take any more, no more expectations
I can't smile and say oh it'll all be ok
they think i'm so strong, and yet i'm so weak
i don't know how to deal with this anguish i'm in
the fear, the anger, the hatred, the pain
it's all overcome me and driven me insane
i can't understand why i've fought for so long
when the answer is there and has been all along
i haven't meant anything to anyone else
and those that i love just ignored my affection
most of the people i cared for the most
have turned my love against me and hurt me
i don't have the desire to go through any more
there's nothing to gain, there's no reason to live
i see no escape from this hell that i live in
but the blade and the blood would make everything fade
and i would feel no more pain, except for the physical
i'd be released from the head games and lies
and life would continue, for all but me
but my life wasn't life, not as it was meant to be
my only problem is i don't want her to cry
i don't want to cause her love and heart to die
she's been there for me, and i love her so much
what i wouldn't give to be released by her touch
she is the reason i'm alive right now
until i have her permission, i must live on some how
until i know that she'll live on and be happy
there's nothing i can do to hurt her
she means the world to me, and i refuse to cause her pain
her life means so much, she has everything to gain
and yet she cares for me? how can it be so
when all else in my life has been hell to know
and so i wait silently, with tears on my face
my arms unscathed, the knife still awaits
and i wait till she wakes, till we can talk
and hopefully then, she'll be a rock
i hope she says no, i hope she refuses
i just don't want to have her make excuses
the only thing left in my life that i love
is a thousand miles away, sent here from above
and yet, is there really anything up there
is there anyone who listens? anyone who cares?
i have not seen it, if he/she exists
which is part of what makes me think i'll not be missed
they go about their lives, believing in God
but when it comes to "love thy neighbor" they grin and nod
and then get in fights, and hate and despise
they don't believe that i see what's in their eyes
the looks that i've gotten, the hatred i've felt
there are too many bad hands that i've played and been dealt
i can't take any more, the pain is too much
what i wouldn't give to be released by her touch
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2004-01-26 03:27:51]
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Re: Just release me from the pain
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by Necromant on
Monday, 26th January 2004 @ 11:16:23 AM AEST
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Oh how sad! Very touching poem! Wondefully written makes you feel your pain. Emotional as well!
Keep on writing don't give up!
Anne :D |
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