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Victim of my Own Insanity
Contributed by
bobotheclown
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Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 01:22:25 AM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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I throw myself down the stairs
Just to feel
And Agony never fails to produce
Trying to hold down my emotions
As I realize Pain will not fulfil this time
Gazing into the grimy windows
Wondering if they can give me
The satisfaction I crave
Tracing a dark design in the grime
This house has witnessed everything
And I make sure NOTHING leaves
Crying these forgotten, lonely tears
Amidst the echoing silence I weep
I stare into the murky windows
And my soul is drawn into it
Knowing I can't live with myself anymore
These four walls they entrap and encircle me
I need out, but not the way you think
I break a window into tiny slivers
And slowly wash them clean
(Don't want to die from infection)
Until they glitter like new
I close my eyes the dirt of all my actions,
My paranoia, my failures, and my fears
It shrieks at me piercing the deepest fragment of my soul
Tearing at my fortitude and my will,
But I know I must do this
I breathe in as my wrist murmurs out
And slowly the glass turns a rusty, sickly hue
I smile both content and intent
As the voices wage a war within me,
But I've already chosen sides
And my final chapter is being sung
My wrist hangs in torn, loose shreds
And I smile through my fog
I sway to my knees
Smearing 'good-bye' into the floor
I will never be found or missed
I've shut myself away for to long
A victim of my own insanity
Copyright ©
bobotheclown
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2003-12-18 01:22:25]
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by emystar on
Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 01:39:22 AM AEST
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Wow! This is so sad!
You've explained your feelings well.
Hang in there, please?
U would definently be missed more than u would think.
Huggs-n-luv,
emy |
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by Jenni_Kalicharan on
Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 01:48:00 AM AEST
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Great write, Joel.... but all is not lost... Yor are strong..hang in there.
Call me if you need to talk....
Btw. I.loved the title...
Hugs
Jenni |
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by jaeann on
Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 03:58:44 AM AEST
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| piercing the deepest fragment of my soul......well yes.....i shall think of you with calming thoughts |
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by Cobalt on
Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 10:07:42 AM AEST
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| Whoa Joel. What happened man? That really sucks. Great write though. Hey at least ya still got yer girl right? |
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by Daniela_Maria_Violin on
Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 10:37:36 AM AEST
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Wow that's some poem... hope you feel better now....
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by afraid_of_fear on
Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 03:41:42 PM AEST
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Oh Joel.. this is a great poem..
im so sorry about your job.. hope you're feelin better real soon, and that you don't follow this through..
char x_x_x |
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by Broken_Skin on
Thursday, 18th December 2003 @ 07:34:21 PM AEST
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| im speechless.... |
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by Ruby1987 on
Saturday, 20th December 2003 @ 06:30:58 PM AEST
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Joel dis iz gr8. I iz sorry bout ur JOB. Don't do anyting stupid cos u won't be hurtin urself but da 1's who luv u. Email if u wanna talk im all ears.
Take care 4rom some1 who really care's
Aaliyah Ruby Ellis |
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Re: Victim of my Own Insanity
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by CuttersAngel on
Thursday, 25th December 2003 @ 01:50:48 AM AEST
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| Great work!!! It's amazing how I can relate all too well.... but of course you may understand the reasons why. Keep writing!!! |
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