The Cut Infront of the Ant Blocking Me
Contributed by
Asatru
on
Wednesday, 24th September 2003 @ 02:35:00 PM in AEST
Topic:
SecretLove
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Can't you admit,
I scared you,
You won't tell the world,
Me either,
No sadness,
No anger,
You weren't frightened,
Not horrified?
No,
Well you weren't exactly happy with me then,
Stopped speaking to me then,
You felt pretty,
You felt happy,
Or so was said,
But you were scared of hurting me,
Scared of ME,
No,
Just what I caused,
Of MY feelings,
Only of me,
Something that was part,
Of my soul,
My mind,
My emotions,
My love,
Scared of yourself,
And letting me down,
Making us both,
Scared of you,
And what might say,
But never actually had to say,
Both of scared of you,
And neither of me,
It's gone in this internal loop of undying love,
Scared of my emotions,
What you had to say about them,
Of a situation I caused,
But you weren't scared of my confession,
But if I hadn't screamed,
You would have no need,
And it all could've fine,
*But I ***** up*,
You didn't care?
Or you just weren't scared?
Did you ever really care,
Care about what I told you,
You couldn't,
Could you?
There's was a cut in the way,
A cut with a T,
Whom of which I've given a promise,
Promise kept secret,
For no one but me to know,
Along with that cut,
But I scared of you,
I told you when you liked an insect,
I was that insects friend,
The one who desired the cat more then anything,
Just to have the company of a cat,
But it was not an ordinary cat,
It was the only cat,
I was the Pirate scared of the cat,
Imagion that one,
I pirate whose hands were full of sweat,
Just at the site of a cat,
A shoutout deserved changing,
And it was,
But I was never answered,
But of an insect and a cut,
So do you like me now?
Did you then?
Have you ever?
So now you know,
Whether you like me or not,
I am the Pirate scared of you,
The cat,
Sparked reignighted,
Though your beauty with looks,
I know I liked not only them,
Because I saw them so rarely,
But I saw you everyday,
I saw your emotions,
And your personallity,
Raging with sweatness,
Kindness,
Love,
Just not for me,
Right?
Never stopping love for you,
In return,
For never love,
I've like this whole time,
True to truth,
To bad I spill at bad times,
Or does it matter?
Poem after poem written for beauty,
Reading the deepest hole into my heart,
My loosened view for you,
My longing,
My neverness,
My "sweetness" always repayed,
Not in full,
But as much as you wanted it to be,
Conversation changing,
In a life of us being friends,
In a life of me wanting more,
Would change,
Inless you liked me,
But it's not changing,
And it's not me you like,
My fear looked down upon,
You just say "Please not now,
Anytime but now,
No wait,
Never,"
Different because of me,
You say if I make it that way,
But it has already been changed,
And I did it,
Not around you,
But to you,
And you know it,
Just no admitance,
You say:"seriously i love you to death,
And i love to hear you talk to me...
You make me feel different from anyone else"
Because you are,
Different from them all,
Because you were the love of me,
But the never loved,
You are beyond normal,
So much more than that,
With my glass heart emptied on your hands,
What are you to do now?
Love you do I or don't I,
I don't know,
Love is a bad word,
That causes too many mixed emotions,
Love grows,
We haven't,
I LOVE your beauty,
I LOVE your mind,
I LOVE your personallity,
But do I love you,
Unanswerable,
Am I a hypocrit with love?
Because I believe it didn't exist,
Until I grew to know your insides,
What makes you tick,
To my best knowledge,
Is loved by me,
Maybe I DO Love you,
And am subconsciencely hiding it,
Because I don't want to say it,
Because once I do,
It hurts even more,
But is it gonna hurt really,
Really bad now that I've told you?
Damage done already,
Can only be repaired by love of you,
*No pressure to you anywhere, anyway*,
Because I won't let you say you do,
Because I would be dead here where I sit,
You are WORTH THE PAIN,
Can't you see it,
Your worth is what hurts me,
So you are worth hurting me,
Finally your fear of my is abolished,
But I'm still shaking,
You tell me to stop and breathe,
But there is no way,
For me,
Just to breathe you in,
Your something I cannot comprehend,
Something to crack that glass,
Caused by the pain,
The pain of knowing we'd never be anything,
And always be nothing,
You can't say what I want to,
That's why I won't let you,
This pain is mine,
Caused by whom it does not concern,
I won't let you be changed,
I am just a pirate,
Do not let me change you,
Your to beautiful to be changed,
You love my love,
But not the loever,
You never knew what was there for me,
Empty or full to the brim,
You can't forget the cut,
Because he's always there,
No matter how many times I ask you to forget it,
Nothing is here now to intrued your emotions now,
But you still won't have it,
Won't have me,
Won't look at you emotions to see what they are,
The Pirate and the Cut both remain in your head,
But now,
The Cut is gone,
The Pirate is here,
But still nothing,
Nothing for me,
Well for now,
Sweet, dreamy ***** cat,
I shall let you dream your dream,
For my eyelids grow weakened by the light,
And I wish to welcome you into sleep,
So try to see me,
Let me know,
I will always hold my telescope,
Just tell me a few simple words,
But let them be true.
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Asatru
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2003-09-24 14:35:00]
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