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Too cruel betrayal
Contributed by
Aika
on
Monday, 1st September 2003 @ 05:05:00 AM in AEST
Topic:
Lifepoems
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I thought he was real friend
I trusted him, he really cared
he was so nice but
he was too jealous, god!
Accommodated in his family caravan
all evenings alone, he said:
you can invite some of your friends
I did
But when he saw me with him
he changed
his eyes were strange
"I am jealous girl"
I could read in them well
In his house I used his pc
to talk to my friends I was gonna visit
then I logged off , left to caravan
and lied in bed - it was the night
Suddenly mobile beeped
I got sms asking:
"are you at pc?"
Another friend sent me that
and I replied:"nope, I am sleeping, it is the night".
He wrote again:
"you are logged on, that is strange"
I got scared,
sat on bed
took my phone and called:
"what are you saying? what is wrong?"
"There is someone pretending you,
asking strange questions and I knew
something was not ok, so wanted to let you know"
I could not breath, started to cry
when again beeped mobile ,
another sms , another friend
the same story - will not it end????
Another call
another explanation
scary messages
crying me
I wished this was dream....
Let me call him Friend X
that man who talked to my friends
4 of them - who let me know
maybe more??
Friend X
sent me also sms
rude, cheeky , unpolite
asking me so private, intimate questions like:
"Did you sleep with man Y,
and do not invite that your friend
all he wants from you is sex".....
So hard to explain what I felt
I thought my world has burned
I felt like in dream with nightmare
I felt I was in dark hole with no light
I felt lost and betrayed
I felt like Iwas dead...
Heart was bleeding
confussion in me
what to do now???
stay - or run away??
Exhausted, in the early morn I fell asleep
woke up so early
Friend X came
lied in my eyes and said:
"when I came to pc,
I saw a message which scared me
and I talked to only one of your friends",
and then he added sentence:
"If you sleep with friend "O",
then you are a whore".
Friend O was that one,
I was planning to invite
for a supper and night walk
I did not want to be alone, ....
It was like he took long knife
and thrust it in my heart
Oh god, why should I????
This all was:
behind the borders of my understanding
the worst I have ever experienced
typical case of pretty jealous friend
Well, let me write the end:
I forgave this X friend, why not?
This case made another scar in my heart
which again remainded me that:
THE ONLY ONE YOU CAN TRUST
IS ALWAYS ONLY YOUR OWN HEART.
He had absolutely no right
to reply to my friends, no reason
to think I was a whore.
I accepted his opinion,
cos I still know, who I am and who I was..
that is all..................
Copyright ©
Aika
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2003-09-01 05:05:00] (Date/Time posted on
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Re: Too cruel betrayal
(User Rating: 1 ) by jaeann on
Monday, 1st September 2003 @ 11:39:42 PM AEST (User
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a sad story of betrayal
sometimes we never know how deep the seeds of jealousy are sowed....until it's too late....good luck!!! |
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Re: Too cruel betrayal
(User Rating: 1 ) by Puppy_dog_eyes on
Friday, 17th October 2003 @ 07:55:18 AM AEST (User
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The pain you experienced really shows through here Aika.I hope you never have to suffer this kind of sadness again.What a pity this man was blinded by himself. |
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