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kindergarden killer
Contributed by
hardcoreputa
on
Thursday, 26th June 2003 @ 02:45:00 PM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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I woke up to the yelling of my father,
Something about how I was a failure.
he hit me, I still don’t know why,
I just remember how he made me cry.
As I got to school I tried to hide my tears,
No one can know about this, not even my peers.
I didn’t want to talk, I had nothing to say,
I already knew this was a horrible day.
But the horrors of the day didn’t stop there,
Because right then I noticed my teachers glare.
“Another F on a test, and no homework too,
April what am I going to do with you?”
But I tried to look strong tried to hide my sorrow,
And sheepishly told her I would have my homework tomorrow.
I couldn’t wait until blissful recess,
But even that proved to be a mess.
I just wanted to be alone with no one around,
So I sat on the far edge of the playground.
But for some reason the lunch lady came,
And sweetly asked “what’s your name?”
She made some other kids play with me,
She thought that would make me happy,
But I didn’t like those kids and their stupid game,
Yet I played with them just the same.
I ran and yelled and tried to have fun,
In fact I fooled most everyone.
And then I saw Stephanie there,
She cried and said I didn’t play fair.
Some words were exchanged and we got into a fight,
And I pushed her down with all my might.
And so I was in trouble because of Stephanie,
But nothing happened to her, the principle lectured me.
I sat in his office finally I was alone,
And I stayed there all day till I went home.
On the bus ride I thought what if I died,
It was my first thought of suicide.
I was the first one home my parents weren’t there,
See I told u they really don’t care.
The next thing I did was put a bag over my head,
Chanting in my mind the word dead
DEAD-DEAD-DEAD-DEAD-DEAD-DE-APRIL!!!!!!!
She’s home – my mom – what would she say?
If she saw me dead today?
Why did I do this, I have to stop now,
Must pretend I'm all right, must seem happy somehow
Did she see me? does she know?
I need to stop and think take it slow –
And I yell up the stairs,
Hey mom how was work?
I don’t think she knows of these affairs,
Or the pain that lurks.
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2003-06-26 14:45:00]
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Re: kindergarden killer
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by ladyfawn on
Thursday, 26th June 2003 @ 04:27:41 PM AEST
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| awwww, big hugs n' lotsa love to you:) nessa |
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Re: kindergarden killer
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by BlackFire9786 on
Thursday, 26th June 2003 @ 05:57:24 PM AEST
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| this is soo sad, my first attempt was in 1st grade, i deeply empathize, much love, PM me if u want to talk. Luv ya lotz-Lisa |
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Re: kindergarden killer
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by Former_Member on
Friday, 27th June 2003 @ 09:44:10 AM AEST
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This is a really lovely write but yet so sad. Hang in there
luv stacey |
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Re: kindergarden killer
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by tinka_belle on
Saturday, 28th June 2003 @ 02:55:36 AM AEST
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awwwwwww
if only they knew
that we were hurting
and that we needed them
then maybe
our bags would be thrown to the floor after school
instead of over our heads
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Re: kindergarden killer
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by Cancer on
Sunday, 29th June 2003 @ 09:48:55 AM AEST
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i'm glad you were able to get this out. i hope it helped somehow. so tragic to be forced behind a mask at such an early age. very emotional write. flowed beautifully.
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Re: kindergarden killer
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by LadyDama on
Wednesday, 2nd July 2003 @ 01:53:59 PM AEST
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| my heart goes out to this little person that once was... the picture you have painted here is so terrifyingly sad... i don't know you, but i am sorry this happened to you... we grew up very poor and abused, but i do not remember ever wanting to die at the age of five... i am so sad that you did... all that aside though... this is an excellent piece of writing... good form and emotionally visual... blessings to you and your path... michele |
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Re: kindergarden killer
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by hardcoreputa on
Sunday, 3rd August 2003 @ 03:06:38 AM AEST
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| thanx for all ur guys support... it means a lot... ~Apryl |
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