The Great Fall
Contributed by
blknwht
on
Saturday, 15th August 2015 @ 01:52:53 AM in AEST
Topic:
EmotionalPoetry
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To face the demons, I have in my past
Means I get to "grow", and maybe just last
Although it is hard, because I am losing it all
I guess I had it coming, I call it "The Great Fall"
Everything in my life, has lead straight up to this
Remembering her, I can still taste her last kiss
For it represents, that I once had true love
But because of my non actions, it's now disposed of
Much like all my relationships, with all that were close
I've always pushed them out, I never cared about me the most
But now I can see, that it's not all my fault
I have dug up some answers, that led to the Fall
It goes way back, before I was Thirteen
I had never knew, about any of these things
I didn't know then, that it would haunt my life
I didn't know then it, would lose my wife
But more importantly, I have a broken soul
And at the same time, I have an even more important role
For I am a Father of five beautiful boys
And I have to be around to build all their toys
So the easy way out, is not an option no more
I HAVE to find a way, get myself up off of this floor
And as hard as it is, to let go what I love most
It has to be worth it, in order to save my ghost
Because its not their fault, that I never learned
To deal with my issues, to continue to burn
They didn't tell me to be sad, all of my life
They didn't tell me not to deal, with all of my strife
I have to start a strong foundation, where I can get right
So I may have a better chance, of being in thier life
Not that I haven't been there, EVERY step EVERY day
But now I can see, that it HAS to be in a healthy way
Professional help i'm seeking, support groups all around
There is no where I can hide, where I cannot be found
This is my one shot to be honest with with it all
And then just maybe it doesn't end, only as "The Great Fall"
Depression has sunk in, as I tuck my boys in tight
Knowing in a few weeks, I will have to leave their life
I'll see them all the time, just not like it was before
A broken home and separation is what they have in store
So i guess I better hurry, and get my ass in gear
For it would just be great, if this didn't last a year
Although I need to take my time, learn to see things clear
I just love those boys so much, losing them forever is my biggest fear
At the end of everything, I don't think I have what it takes
To relive all my past... it was a lot of mistakes
But I guess i owe it to myself, I owe it for it all
Thats why what I'm going through, I call... "The Great Fall"
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2015-08-15 01:52:53] (Date/Time posted on
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