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Looking at You
Contributed by
mmrsblove
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Tuesday, 21st January 2014 @ 09:11:12 PM in AEST
Topic:
LovePoetry
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Looking at You
You sit in class
Face looking down, doing your work
I should be doing the same thing
But I`m too busy looking at you
You don’t seem to notice my eyes
Watching your face scrunch in confusion or
When you write quickly because you just solved a problem
But you do eventually look up from that problem
And I look away because it would be weird to be looking at you
But I can’t help it
I check to see if you are working again
And you are
In my head my thoughts are screaming
Saying, “Do your work” or “Write something down”
I ignore them and keep watching
Looking at you, your hair, your hands, your legs
Everything about you seems to distract me
Yet I don’t know why
This time I listen to those voices and turn away
Yet your picture is in my mind, stuck there
An image I can’t get out of my head
This is where I start daydreaming
I seem to be doing that often
Mostly about you and I
Can you think of that?
I wish
But you probably don’t
You don’t even notice me staring
Right at you
Noticing every little thing about you
Looking at you
This hurts me
I want you to know this wonderful pain
To know how I feel
If you could just look up and into my eyes
But I cant blame it all on you
I turn away at every given chance
I don’t know if you look at me
Somewhere inside my heart
I want you to be noticing things about me too
Maybe things like the way I hold my pen
Or the way I tap my foot
I can’t say anything because
I’m turning around
My eyes shutting out yours because I have to
What if I kept looking at you
What would be my prize
You quickly averting your eyes?
Or maybe you’re looking at someone else
Or maybe Ill get a small smile
Telling me that you know that I’m looking at you
I wont take that chance
Its not that I don’t want to
Its just I don’t think Ill be able to handle it
Just getting a small smile
It would break me
Seeing that you don’t even know my feelings for you
Yet you still smile at me like we are friends
Friends, I scoff at the word
I don’t want to be friends with you
I’m greedy and I want more than that
I want you, all of you
I’m being a coward
Why can’t I turn around?
Hoping that my eyes meet yours
Although I know that when I will turn around
Your eyes wont be looking at me
They will be looking at the board
Or your paper or your friends
Anywhere but at me, at my eyes
This is why I`m a coward
I don’t want to be rejected I guess?
But if I`m such a coward
The why cant I forget about you
Your hair, your legs, your hands,
Your eyes
I want to but you somehow have a hold on me
That you don’t know about
That hurts a lot more than you could imagine
I take my chance after my internal debate
And I turn around
Trying not to be obvious
As I scale up you legs to your stomach to your arms and to your neck
As my eyes finish traveling
I land on your face
Your face
I take my time hoping that you don’t look at me
Let me enjoy this short amount of time that I can get looking at you
I scale up your profile
I should look away before you turn towards me
Probably feeling somebody`s eyes looking at you
But I don’t
I continue to take my chances
I keep looking at your profile
Your freckles, lips, nose
Finally the two beautiful things that I cant resist even if I try
Your eyes
I wasn’t expecting them to be looking directly at me
This scared me but I kept looking
So did you
And for a moment I thought that you could see it
These so called feelings that I have
I notice your eyes once again
We are too far away for me to see the different shades
As I think of this
I think of how you cant see my eyes and their emotions
You are still looking at me
Never breaking our staring contest
I slowly get up
I get up to move closer to you
You don’t seem to be nervous or scared of me
I take it as a good sign and keep moving closer
Two desks later I’m next to you
We are closer now
Never breaking eye contact
I wonder if you feel like I do
Is your heart beating as fast as mine?
I want to ask these questions but I don’t want this moment to be ruined
I’m sure that you can see my eyes now
The emotions, the feelings
I’m close enough to see the different shades in your eyes
I’m not looking for colors though
I’m looking for feelings
I know you can see mine
It’s been minutes
I’ve been in this desk trying to figure out your feelings
I focus on you, just you
You are making it hard
But you aren’t shutting me out
I look closer and closer until…
Your eyes blink
Shutting out the world that we both seemed to get lost in
I look around
I’m still in the same seat as I was in before
I never moved closer to you
I never did anything
My eyes snap up to yours
Hoping that we have one more chance for this moment
Your eyes don’t meet mine
They never do
So why would I expect that this class would be different
The class where I can say that for once you knew me
My feelings
You never will
I’m too much of a coward to do anything
The class moves on with the lesson
I look down at my paper and it says nothing
Do you see what you do to me?
I can’t focus
I turn back around and try to get myself to pay attention
But I always end up in the same position
Looking at you.
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mmrsblove
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2014-01-21 21:11:12] (Date/Time posted on
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Re: Looking at You
(User Rating: 1 ) by softerware on
Tuesday, 21st January 2014 @ 09:30:49 PM AEST (User
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A day in class can be a lifetime! So much going on in your heart and mind…
Put this poem in a book to read it again in a year…you will discover what a year's journey has taught you about this moment in your life's work.
I think you will be plesantly surprised.
softer ware
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Re: Looking at You
(User Rating: 1 ) by alicewhite on
Tuesday, 21st January 2014 @ 10:43:53 PM AEST (User
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Fantastic poem, I was Captivated wanting to know what would happen, melodic soothing and hypnotising, like a Mantra, loved it,x |
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Re: Looking at You
(User Rating: 1 ) by ladyfawn on
Thursday, 1st May 2014 @ 11:23:32 PM AEST (User
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so beautifully heartfelt, i just love it!
hugs n; love nessa |
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