Scary emptiness and void
Contributed by
psychdocg
on
Wednesday, 20th February 2013 @ 06:37:46 PM in AEST
Topic:
selfstruggles
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Scary emptiness and void
Want to avoid
Slowing down makes me feel depressed, sad
Want to stay busy to avoid feelings of sadness, loneliness
Feelings of anger, resentment boil up
Don’t like feelings of anger,
Want to bury, ignore
Learning to mindfully acknowledge feeling of loneliness , anger, feeling crushed
Trying to just be with the feelings, not fix or avoid or run away from feelings
Demands , urgent demands being barked at me by myself
Trying to compel and command me to start being frantic ,
Breathing, iiiinnnnn aaaannndddd ouuuuutttt
Closing eyes, asking God to teach me to be compassionate with myself,
To be gently curious with my feelings
Never realized that I could try to learn to be compassionate with self
Never thought much before of trying to be gently curious with pain, fear
Compassion, seeing , feeling little boy inside , so scared, so angry
Little boy, I am here, God is here, I feel your pain, I suffer with you and want to help bear your pain
God’s spirit hovering over the water in the beginning
The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. Genesis 1:2
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