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Changing
Contributed by
vr2776
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Monday, 3rd September 2012 @ 08:13:38 PM in AEST
Topic:
EmotionalPoetry
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You tell me not to die
But what is there to hold on too…
For everything I thought was real
was never really true…
A lie..?
I can't say it’s been a lie but I know
I’m not sure who I really am…
All the years looking for the truth
in someone else’s hands…
Living life through the eyes of
others and never through my own…
Doing as everyone wanted
All my life this is what I was shown…
Need to break the chains and step out of
the skin that I hibernated in for far too long…
The skin that tried to protect me and keep me
from doing wrong…
But more harm than good this did as
It’s been a façade I lived in,
a preprinted canvas that portrayed only the
beauty that was seen by the owner of the art…
The cocoon that shielded me has only served
To make me bitter and resentful
This life I have lived was not meant to be
But now, I’m out of the shell and walking in the dark…
Breaking out of the cocoon going through
metamorphosis I'm still changing into what?
I haven't yet figured out what that’s supposed be…
In this process of searching and changing
I reach out for that hand that understands
But I feel I’m just getting pulled back in to
that shell… this would be a catastrophe…
In this process I must go through or this
journey I must embark on, I will be called
selfish and many will be angry as their
backs will turn and their faces be hidden…
But this is nothing new, every road before
this I have done nothing right in the
eyes of those who say they care, But
to say how I feel, this has always been forbidden…
I have been cautioned to care for the feelings
and reputations of those around me …
as I just fade into the background a shadow
an image of those who stand in front of me…
But in my search I will be as selfish as I can get…
For through all these years I have listened only
to the voice, that was not the voice in my head…
I have lived in fear, with regret and animosity
toward those who tried to do me well…
But its only been because in my life I was sheltered
And was raised in that shell…
A rebellious person I will become to some
to me I have just decided to live my life…
This change that comes now at this time
will unfortunately come with a hefty price…
For years I have looked from the inside out
as if I was a prisoner desiring the freedom to live
as I choose…
I sat and dreamed of breaking out into that world
of adulthood, that to me has been refused…
I have heard many times the phrase how can you
Love someone when you don’t love yourself
Well I am on my way to falling in Love with
me and this time, Thank you, but I will do it my
way and with no one’s help….
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vr2776
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2012-09-03 20:13:38]
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Re: Changing
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by workinprogress on
Monday, 3rd September 2012 @ 08:32:31 PM AEST
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| wow, this is so deep and profound. I will tell you this is a great journey to be on! I could really feel your words and resonated with your thoughts. Very captivating, thanks! |
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