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one step away from your side
Contributed by
pollyamik
on
Sunday, 29th January 2012 @ 03:48:50 PM in AEST
Topic:
EmotionalPoetry
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Tell me exactly where I went wrong... Cause I wish every moment to go back and Chang it.
Tell me where I messed up... And I will dream of how I could have changed it.
Tell me why this Keeps happening...
And I will do my best to stop it.
Tell me if theres anything I can do...
To get things back to how they were.
Tell me to go away... So I can let you go.
Tell me please... What this feeling is for you.
I think I love you... That maybe I'm in love with you.
And that just can't be...
So tell me how to stop... Wanting you here... Close to me.
To not want to hold you and kiss your pain away...
Cause it kills me deep inside of this heart in parts I have kept locked deep away...
But you broke in and told me it was ok...
But what's ok of a day that I wake up and feel this pain when your away...
And I know this is how it should be...
Your happy without me... Then why do I long to make us be.
Cause I can't live without you... And your friend is what I'll have to be.
It's hard... To accept that I can't make things right.
But not right with you right with me...
To tell myself I don't need you... Is like a knife in the heart.
So tell me what this new pain is all about...
Cause I can no longer control it...
I'd like to blame it on jealousy... That he's with you when I clearly just can't be.
But It's not even that... It's the fact that I can't.
I see you hurt by his words and all I can do is say it will be ok...
But every couple fights is what I'm told.
But maybe I can't leave well enough alone.
I know you love him and I should just move on...
But it's harder then you know when you told me that to have to hold on...
You saved my life and you don't even know...
Cause I was about to turn in when you told me no...
And if you ever could read this you would have to find a way to let me go...
But the pain I'm in I'm starting to understand. That maybe you aren't the reason that here I stand.
I promised to never give up on you an if I haven't well here I go.
Cause no matter how much pain I'm in you fill my mind... Like its all I know.
Obsessed... Maybe.
But don't get it wrong... If you told me to go I would be on my way.
A hard life it is to be your friend... But for that I'm thankful.
You are the best thing that has ever happens to me... But I know I can't wait forever.
It's not you that's hurting me anymore... it's pure self destructure.
Now that I know where I stand... It's really easy to fall over.
It's not like your not there... but your just a step away.
And he's in that space... In my way.
I want you to know I'm truly happy for you... And I wish you both a great life together.
As long as your happy with your choice... I will keep this whisper as my voice.
And no matter how bad things get... I won't get any louder.
For your sake not for mine... Cause I could shout for hours that I wish you were mine.
So a whisper I will stay... One step away from your side till you wish me away.
And after all that I am happy that you still want me to stay.
I have been through Hell... And you were the light.
And if that's all you were... Then maybe it's my time to fight.
Perhaps not for you this time... But for something a little different.
Maybe it's me and for that we just can't be.
I've accepted that... And will start my walk away.
But when morning turns to night... I still somehow need you to light my way.
Find a new light someone told me was the only way.
But I don't need a new light I need to learn to light my own way.
So I'm not saying goodbye...
What I'm trying to say here is simply this.
I love you forever... And if anything should change.
I would like to take your hand and kiss all your pain away.
But until that day I will take a few steps away.
Make room for anyone who might walk into my life and decide to stay.
Not that I plan for him to ever be gone. Cause you love him and to wish him away would be wrong.
But if he were to ever move and I reach out my hand... Could I take my changes of being good enough to be your man?
Maybe someday. Or if I was to find happiness elsewhere. My hand would not reach to you.
But my arms would still be wrapped around you.
Tightly in a hug when you need comfort and to lightly wipe your tears away.
Cause if I haven't I promise to be a step away from your side till the very last day.
pollyamik PLEASE: To help keep this site INTERACTIVE, please read and comment on at least 3 poems for each one you submit.
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