On this morning,
I wake up early,
It’s 3 a.m.
I lay in strife,
Toss and turn,
My mind, I condemn.
The dream,
So livid, so real,
The lights are dim.
Pictures fly,
In my mind,
Across my eyes.
The happiness,
Once I had,
You and I.
A silhouette,
I see it’s you,
I want to die.
Exhaustion speaks,
I take that pill,
So I can sleep.
I slumber,
And in my dream,
My soul weeps.
I awake,
I realize,
I’m in to deep.
4:42 a.m.
I lay in strife,
I cry.
I sit up,
I reach for the blade,
Across my wrist it slides.
I curl back up,
Lick at my wound,
Sleep, and accept your lie.
In my sleep,
I have a dream,
I see your smile.
A wicked grin,
Laughing at my wrists,
How could you be so vile?
,
I’m disgusted,
In my throat,
I feel the bile.
5:16 a.m.
I sit up and scream,
I turn over and puke.
I ponder,
How could I,
I used to find you so cute.
But still yet,
These emotions,
I can’t rebuke.
I roll over,
I focus on the ceiling,
I shut my eyes to sleep.
It never comes,
I lay in consciousness,
Until I feel the urge to pee.
7:16 a.m.
I get up,
I get ready.
But still yet,
I feel so unhappy,
As if I’m drowning.
I paste on the false smile,
The fake happiness,
No, to them I’m not mourning,
I walk out the door,
Hello, I say,
Hello, Sunday Morning.
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2010-04-13 20:06:30] (Date/Time posted on
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