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A Twisted Mind
Contributed by
Fiona
on
Wednesday, 26th March 2003 @ 08:45:00 PM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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My pillow is soasked
My eyes are red
All these thoughts jumbled in my head
The tears keep coming
They follow the pain
For in this hell is where I remain
My face is tear stained
My body can't feel
And I ask myself "Can this be real?"
Just to be thinner
Is all I want to be
A size 7 doesn't work
I want to be a 3
I don't care what it takes
I won't even eat
My life consists of hate and deceit
Th dream of perfection
It's one little goal
To love myself and body as a whole
In so very frustrated
What do I do ?
Is it so much to ask
To wear a size 2
Just to be perfect
Is all I want anymore
But I'm getting closer
I'm down to a four
My family is worried
My friends are in fear
But it all equals out
Because we cry the same tears
Just to look at this food
It feels like a sin
I don't care what it takes
I just want to be thin
I passed out today
The fourth time this week
My family is worried
And my friends wont speak
The doctors tell me
There's nothing they can do
I don't care though
Since I am wearing a 2
Today is the first day
I've eaten is so long
Who knew a little girl
Could be so strong
My body won't function
My heart began to fail
My hair is falling out
And I'm so very pale
I died with a smile
What Can I say ?
70 lbs was all that I weighed
I know what I did
Was also a sin
But to wear a size 2...
I'd do it again
Copyright ©
Fiona
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2003-03-26 20:45:00] (Date/Time posted on
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by karoody on
Wednesday, 26th March 2003 @ 09:02:12 PM AEST (User
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You wrote this so well! The emotions someone with eating disorderss go through are terrible. You did a great job showing this mind to us. Thank you for sharing.
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by Kane on
Wednesday, 26th March 2003 @ 11:40:34 PM AEST (User
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Very well done I should say, the thoughts are real, Verywell done.
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by TundraHydra on
Thursday, 27th March 2003 @ 12:17:56 AM AEST (User
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Kinda creepy to think that this happens to so many girls today. Great write |
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by Varro on
Thursday, 27th March 2003 @ 01:04:27 AM AEST (User
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I knew some women suffering from anorexia. I am familiar with their pain and anguish, but there is plenty of hope and they overcame this malady. Nice display of emotion..deeply felt.
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by Former_Member on
Thursday, 27th March 2003 @ 07:34:23 AM AEST (User
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This is such a difficult subject to write about but I think you have done it with emotion and good taste. A wonderfully isnsghtful poem.
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by tease_whizz on
Thursday, 27th March 2003 @ 01:42:06 PM AEST (User
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powerful emotions expressed really well. i hope you find the strength you need to overcome this - from experience i can tell you that being thinner doesn't make your life perfect, if anything it makes it worse because the process of getting there is painful for you and those who love you. best of luck always, keep writing, Kate x |
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by springchic1979 on
Thursday, 27th March 2003 @ 02:30:06 PM AEST (User
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I hardly ate as it was...but I never went as far as to starve myself. In Middle and High School I was a kid size 14 (woman size 0-2) and remember my gymnastics teacher telling me I needed to lose a few pounds...If I had listened to him I may very well have ended up like the girl in your poem. I remember pondering over whether or not to follow his advice...
Great write...Definately brought back some memories.
Yvonne
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by afraid_of_fear on
Sunday, 30th March 2003 @ 10:01:27 AM AEST (User
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this is a very good poem. hope you're okay. *hugs*
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by full_blur on
Monday, 7th April 2003 @ 01:20:48 AM AEST (User
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great progression...this poem is playful with the counting, but scary in the physical digression, I like it a lot! |
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Re: A Twisted Mind
(User Rating: 1 ) by Apartment213 on
Thursday, 15th May 2003 @ 06:06:47 PM AEST (User
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extremely emotional it just snow balled out of control i thought it was deep |
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