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untitled
Contributed by
derickkk
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Thursday, 11th December 2008 @ 12:14:18 AM in AEST
Topic:
EmotionalPoetry
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its time for me to write again
listening to my serenity
my equality
surrounded my a shroud of immaturity
once again, i wait
waiting for something to come
vast in my soul, this will never return
i will never cope with the pain i have endured
regretting every day of my life
sitting, drowning im tears
something i will never get back
my humanity
my reason for reality
existence
the tapping on the walls have stopped
time is non-existent
you decision, changes your whole life
capture the moment
you feel imortal, unstoppable
but withered down to mearly nothing
lost my internal happiness
no time to re cap
what is inspiration?
dertermination to push your limits
there is no solution, resolution
the image reapeats over and over
what is the question ive been searching
the missing peace within
my serenity
my apperence is decisive
a mear illusion of my former self
what seems to be...non-existence
a heart...
a soul...
no simpathy or remorse
i will drown in my own mistakes
i will have my honor
i will get my last words
even if it kills me
dwelling on my past
immobile to proceed
as if frozen in dissaray
what exactually is keeping me alive
that one last toke
the one buzz that will end all the pain
my fight for the hunt
the love of the fight
but love, the most powerful
my emotions
its all just to much to handle
why do i care so much
about her...
she will really never know how i felt
just to close my eyes...
pretending
that fake smile every morning
just to make it one more day...
how long do i have
if there is a god please
save me from this torment
give me the power to move on
what what doesnt kill you
makes you stronger
i will get my honor
even if it kills me
whom to blam but ones self
blinded dayly
i must leave
i cant do this anymore
what we see...
never seems to be
stored, locked away
the heart bleeds,
yurning, wanting less and less
bleeding the internal bliss
but her...
the one i thought cared
left me alone and barred
how can someone just quite
so i sit there... wondering
hours and hours on end
in sorrow with no justice
no reason
thought
idea
nothing
promises i have made
to never let the past get to me
every day it fades
more and more
the heart bleeds what one cannot see
that one emotion
this feeling killed me
right to the center of my heart
my tragic life, reloaded
the one thing...
sending a stong man to his knees
infront of his maker
a chance to face everything....
fear
love
emotion
life
my internal weakness
the true love was lost, stolen from my heart
years ago,
cheated and lyed to
your best best friend
stabbes you right in the back
the reacurrence of my past
back to haunt me once again
i can only hope for self control
i blame this all on myself
regaurdless of anything
my love, once again lost
maybe i deserved this
to be all alone, forgotten
i had a plan,
try to mix my mistakes
never was given the chance
killed it like you killed my heart
how could you do this
it must be easy
i had no chance from the start
but i shall crawl,
bacl to my pathedic life
fadding away
after all this is my fate isnt it
i deserve this
from this piece of writing i better understand thee
running to your closest comfort
just giving right up
a heart of gold, a weak mind
i must move on
thinking you were always worth the time
not a day did i rarly...
thinking of you was my drug
i loved you
its quite a shame now
im going no were
this is my fate
this is what i deserve
leave me be, it will only be a matter of time
one day i will end my rein of terror
killing the spirit within
no pain
fear
emotion
logic
just me
NOTHING
you have fun with your life
one day you will relize
and yet to discover myself
but when i do,
i can shurly rest in peace
feeling the brunt of the barell
so cold and ruthless
designed to kill
just as humans are
with a concenless mind
out of my mind
i have the power
to create or destory
my life doesnt matter anymore
never did it matter
im scared
just staring into the wet darkness
a trance, a flash back
everything ive done
shattered right in front of me
i never gave up on you
i just gave up on myself from day one
closing my eyes sweezing
thinking...
i was never good enough
EVER
.
.
.
.
.
.
BANG!!!!!!
you wake up
cold and shivering
the 12 gauge pesent arms
waking up to another waisted day
fake smile
one day
my fate will be all mine
reality
to do this all over again
but i shall not appologize to myself
this is who i am
afterall...
I AM MOST WANTED
BANG
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derickkk
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2008-12-11 00:14:18]
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Re: untitled
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by Former_Member on
Thursday, 11th December 2008 @ 08:13:48 AM AEST
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tragic story. but you laid it out superbly and it was very easy to read. it gave the effect of a thought process, like i could read your thoughts. it was very effective and very good.
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