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Victim and Convict of the same Homicide; Myself
Contributed by
thebballer72
on
Thursday, 13th November 2008 @ 06:46:18 AM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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I'm so tired of this sickness inside of me
all it does is grab and eat the inside of me
Tearing me apart heart and soul
I just wanna feel warm but my path is cold
I'm angry for the things I quit
But I couldn't quit the one thing worth quitting
I let my addiction cut up lines and worse myself
I quit school because i was lost in the drug game
For it I risked my life and gave my soul to making money and ensuring my stomach but especially my addiction was always full
I gave my life to this game but instead of getting a trophy I got 2 black eyes brain damage and it left me in Chico to die in a hole
Oh did i Mention what else I got from this friend?
Loss of respect and a fatal cocaine addiction
Every binge I get closer to the end
How did I get this way it used to be Jesus but now Pablo Escobar is my best friend
I had so much potential but it got just like me.. wasted
Failure hurts when there is no way to win, but it kills when you have every way to be a victor and you're too worthless and strung out to just do it
I don't wanna die but I'm tired of this *****
Waken up day to day realizing I have lived for 20 years and made nothing of it
I'm tired of hating me it's like having a school bully living inside me constantly degrading me and kicking me into the dirt
But I put on a smile crack a few jokes try to find a pill to pop or drug to smoke
Cuz i convince myself thats the only way to cope
Hopefully I can escape my self for hour or 2 let the drugs trick me into thinking I am doing what I wanna do
So this roller coaster is the end for me
I just know ill finally be able to sleep once I commit and lay in the ground 9 feet deep
Feel years of pain or just one pull of the trigger?
I got a 9mm I got 1 bullet I'm tired of my futile life its time for me to clutch that trigger and hope the world will remember me as someone stronger and bigger
Bradley S. Barroso II
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thebballer72
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2008-11-13 06:46:18]
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Re: Victim and Convict of the same Homicide; Myself
(User Rating: 1 )
by Jenni_K on
Thursday, 13th November 2008 @ 04:10:06 PM AEST
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Welcome to YPDC, Brad... This is really heart-breaking and written with such honesty. I hope that you have now gotten over your addiction. I have a brother who is a coke addict and it hurts to see him waste his life. Incidently, I posted a poem about him a little while ago....
Take care of yourself stay strong...
Jenni |
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Re: Victim and Convict of the same Homicide; Myself
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by thebballer72 on
Thursday, 13th November 2008 @ 09:25:51 PM AEST
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| Thanks for the feedback ya i kicked the habit and was actually about to do it again tonight but last night I found that poem on my comp on accident and it instantly brought me back and theres no way I am going back. I hope your brother can get out as well. |
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