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Would you even care
Contributed by
Nothingness
on
Thursday, 7th September 2006 @ 09:52:30 AM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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Again! why did i let someone take my trust
My heart shattered and crushed in to dust
I dont know why i feel like i have been cut so deep
Now that i have trusted so much i feel so cheap
I just dont understand why did u feel u needed more
I been hurt a thousand times but not like this before
Its probly not as bad as im making it seem
But im choked for words and i still hear a piercing scream
How can it be me if i cant even think clearly
Maybe its because i held you so dearly
You should be able to see that i was doing my best
But still you are not satisfyed you wanted the rest
Well forget it now im not gonna give into you my dear
Trusting is and now always will be my biggest fear
This is to much its still so hard for me to believe
You are the one that kept me here but now i just want to leave
Everything i worked so hard on seems like such a waste
Without you i feel like nothing and i know u can never be replaced
I hate myself so much for fearing everything because of the past
I was hurt so much then but i knew that time would not be the last
Now when i need to talk things out you seem so far gone
Were you perhaps planning this all along?
I wont give back in to my terrible addiction
But i crave so much for my forms of self affliction
Still cant decide what i really want to do
Cause i know how much i really love you
I know you would be crushed if i chose my long awaited suicide
But i know thats the thing i want so much to decide
I feel so lost and so far away from all that hold a part of me
I still cant help but feel suicide is really my destiney
At a loss of breath feeling my spark of life begin to fade
Now that i have no reason to live i feel so afraid
I want to see what comes after life but are we really done
Even the thought kills me inside but the pain has just begun
Should i even wait for you to find out what im going through
Or should i end it now and conceal all of this pain from you
I love you so much and i never want to cause you any pain
Im so afraid and the reason why words can never explain
But we both know why and i thought you understood
But now i think you just said it along and never really could
Well your not here to calm me down and talk me to sleep
But i will wait for you until then alone i shall silently weep
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Nothingness
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Re: Would you even care
(User Rating: 1 ) by Drapes on
Thursday, 7th September 2006 @ 04:29:47 PM AEST (User
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Good emotion and good job rhyming it. Great write! |
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Re: Would you even care
(User Rating: 1 ) by emystar on
Thursday, 7th September 2006 @ 11:41:41 PM AEST (User
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You gotta learn to luv yourself better.
We all want someone to luv us but from experience, I know I have to luv me first, then and then will I recieve luv.
Please take it easy on your self, please.
Hang tuff as joy cometh in the morning.
U r a very good writer so look at your self from this angle.
Keep up the good work.
luv, huggs, prayers,
emy |
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Re: Would you even care
(User Rating: 1 ) by drtylilsecret on
Friday, 8th September 2006 @ 12:53:39 AM AEST (User
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reading this poem i was imagining what would would happen if your bf read it...but um, fantastic write, no forced rhyming (which can often ruin an otherwise good poem), real emotion, real pain, you put it all into words beautifully, and good luck figuring out whether your curiosity about life will keep you going, or whether the hunger and desperation for something different, better, fatal, will get the best of you.....
--talli |
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Re: Would you even care
(User Rating: 1 ) by Uncertain_Oblivion on
Friday, 8th September 2006 @ 01:26:59 PM AEST (User
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this is really well done, but it is so sad. I hope that things get better for you. I understand what you are going through. I'm kind of dealing with the same thing right now. Hang in there. |
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