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How Much Longer
Contributed by
no_one
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Saturday, 18th March 2006 @ 12:02:46 PM in AEST
Topic:
selfstruggles
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I’m forced to fake a smile everyday of my life. I can sit
here and honestly say something is not right. My friends
think I’m happy, my family thinks I’m okay.They don’t see
the pain I am going through every day.
I am a Christian, I am not lying, so why am I sitting here,
and I cant stop crying. Life is too short for this mess, I wish
I could just confess, the pain I feel inside. It makes me want
to cry. Why is this my life, why can’t I just look all right? I am
just so insecure; there is nothing that I know for sure.
Everything I wish would change, keeps me here like tied up chains.
Too much for a 13-year old life, but I’m not saying I want to die. I
love my family and my friends; I just wish this day would end
I love my Lord and my God, can he please just show me how?
How can I get through this? How much longer do I have to endure
this? To many things locked up inside, to many people I have to
push to the side. I know you think I might be crazy, I know my thoughts
seem a little bit hazy. I’ not a drama queen, this is how I feel, so you
can’t sit there and say this is not real
I say I’m okay every day of my life, but the truth is I’m then your mind
would have went off like a alarm or a beeper. But luckily I didn’t, I’m
still alive, but sometimes I think should I have died? But I’m not saying
I want to, its just a thought, I don’t want to die, it may sound like I do,
but that is how I am confusing you
I’m not suicidal. I swear I am not, if I were I’d be throwing you a lot of
different thoughts. My mind is to complicated for you to understand.
So don’t sit here and act like you’re the bigger man. I’ve dealt with it
this far, and I will keep on trying, but if I break down or just start crying,
pay no attention at all, you haven’t so far, just walk away, and act like
I’m not alive. I’ll get better, and ill just get up and try. I will stay alive,
because I’m strong, I will carry on, so this is it I’m done, now leave me
alone this is the end of this poem.
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2006-03-18 12:02:46]
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Re: How Much Longer
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by stew777 on
Saturday, 18th March 2006 @ 04:11:10 PM AEST
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The Death of a Loved one, and the grieving process that follows is hard for some.
We all deal with it differantly. no two are the same.
I do hope your feeling much better about
yourself.
Take you problems and worries to the
LORDand LEAVE them with him,
TRUST &
OBEY.
He will Hold Your Hand He will Understand..
God bless you.
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Re: How Much Longer
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by Cold_Blue_Eyes on
Sunday, 19th March 2006 @ 06:56:22 PM AEST
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Wow. Excellent poem. It made me cry. I know how it feels to lose a loved one. I also know that without God it would not be possible to move on. I hope you are feeling much better now.
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