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ddannyc
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Sunday, 6th November 2005 @ 12:45:44 AM in AEST
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. She says she dos’ent want to base are relationship on sex but now-adays what do we base it on friend ship? Trust? Respect ?and honor please those are just words to me. Give me a break!!!! that ***** in this day an age!!!! every thing is sex. and its one big scandal. Please prove me wrong !!! Its just all I see. No real people any more. I make my self out about as real as I can. and out there I’m as fake as you .The most confusing thing is. Maybe its become the norm to be fake the we are the new generation love struck stuck kids .I need some things ,some way for u all to fell what I’m felling. By the way I’m selfish to!!! I need u all to here this so I can better under stand my self. I suck at writing and I’m a poor poet but ***** it right ? What ever makes me fell good .I need to get it off this all to heave chest . Some day , some way, some how, some love, some pain ,some sun and then rain. Full moon blazing fire …hate to love ……love to hate …I hate!!love hate ……But they seem to go hand and hand .there’s love hate with jealousy& lusting dividing the 2 …to far to see………..to careless in to care ………….never again I once thought ……..foolishly wrong…………who really needs love,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,somethings not right….. I hold on to tight …my sights to near ……my vision to far . Sitting here and there. With old familiar felling. It boils over in my soul turning me inside out….Exposed for all to see ….make this nothing ,,,,,,,, make me some thing,,,,,,,,, help me find the way to her heart then show the way to my own.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,haven’t seen my heart in to long ,,,,,,to long it comes in short brief periods of drug use ….I need some thing more …………..something real……some thing ……….. when all said and done I can say it felt good . I don’t want to hurt you but if this is the way to your heart …..so be it ……..I will …….. willing pain…… good pain…….. selfishly adjusting . To concentrate on your pain ………/////////////// how can hurt????????? to love?????? then I will!! Back to where it all began……. in love …….then hate………. So…….. You……….. love to hate me and I ……..hate loving you ……..A dark soul without direction to the light ….there by your darkness I lay absorbing your pain……..to lighten my. Pain……selfishness………..hungry &tired……painful heated opinions ………….off to some where …….(dessfutional) ……….scars of the past ………wounds that will never heal………. Can heal ……but don’t know how ………..lost ………what ///////////////////////because …..what do you mean? lost! I don’t mean that….. no your life is wreathless you will always be down in this mess you created …..need a beer it would so easy to just say ***** it all… ***** the good times they make the inevitable worse . it makes the hard times harder… what to do now ?am lost in a crazy mind im lost in something ,…………..found nothing………. but its pain………. a pain….. the pain… it hurts ……life & air …….you & me…….. true love ………true pain ………..forever looking for a way ……. I’m lost now …never to find, but these messy words. That spill from a messy mind. Confused and lost in riches of fairy tail love. that I cant grasp. every thing & any thing I do & say hunts me every day. Where to go from here?? social anxiety . I thank u Think before you speak. Think be for u write. Think about the times when you where free .Think about the times when every thing seemed so magical, new & mysterious ( for to find) don’t look!! just type keep typing don’t miss the moment of clarity because it leaves just as abruptly as it came. ***** I looked…????????? will be the way I wanted it ????????this ancientness over wells…these are the thoughts I live in I need to break free. For some reason this soothes me. Deliriously typing away for what? I don’t know. me off I wish I could skate like a pro my body is wearing thin I need to find a new escape from reality I’m going to be in jail soon time always repeats .Can’t escape the past it is always hunting me’’’’ always two steps ahead of me. .It lays waiting in the shadows waiting for me like a misfit /// angry ***** hungry /// carrying a sickness’’’’’ a nothing waiting for some thing ’ the past swarm s me like sharks feasting in a blood bath interring my soul,,,,, help me write this all down give me a peace of peace of mind or something for someone, one time. one way …….with out cause …. With out you I’m
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